I thought I was an adult until...

Starting to work and gain your freedom at sixteen makes you feel invincible.You think that money to blow on what ever you like is what it's all about! Then I moved out at 18 and felt a little burden by working three jobs and paying rent. Needless to say I moved back home while I prepared to leave for college. Two years of college under my belt and I decided to move here to Colorado. I knew about two people and after I found my apartment my coworkers became a family I depended on. Another year passed and knowing that I was able to keep myself alive and a roof over my head I thought that I was nailing this adult thing. 

So years of what I thought was experience and thinking I was an adult, but oh how I was so wrong!!

In this last year I am married, expecting my first child, came into a mortgage, and started a business. Now if that isn't a stiff jab into adulthood I don't know what is. We have gone through loss, struggle, uncertainty, change of career paths, buying a new car and everything in between. This year hasn't exactly been a picnic, but it has definitely been a year of learning and experience.

I have people that depend on me. Not the type of depending on me where a friend comes to me for advice because she has boy trouble, but like to keep us afloat and alive out here. I think this really hit me when I had to sign up for a baby registry. What is a good car seat? What type of crib should we buy? Should we register for a crib that is reasonably price but built of sub par material and laced with chemicals that my child will inhale, or go with the incredibly more expensive real wood crib?  Because of course anything of true quality in our chemically altered society is paid for in arms and legs, possibly an eyeball too! If you dare to place something on your registry you are seen as unreasonable and probably going to spoil your child rotten! Goodness me! What to do what to do? 

When I was growing up and people told me that every decision I made would have a consequence whether good or bad I didn't understand it until now. We live in a world where every parenting choice, marriage decision or personal change is placed under a microscope for all to have an opinion. It is a little odd in a world that fights for each persons right to choose on so many controversial topics, that each decision we make will be deemed right or wrong.This coming from a society that is chanting there is no absolute wrong or right anymore. 

Hmm I believe my rant just took a mind of its own. Haha. Well up until these last few weeks I thought I was an adult, and then I realized this is barely the starting gate. Welcome to Adulthood. You're not guaranteed to love it, but there are more perks than where you are coming from.Best of luck to us all!